random thoughts

met this really nice gal, who was my first opponent for the ssra competition, again on my second day. it's quite nice how we got to know each other. played with her a bit when no one was using the courts. i think i have a super big weakness when i play games -- i tend to slip out of focus easily. today was a pretty rough time. the first match was a sure loss, so it didnt really bothered me. guess i didn't really give it my all, which is bad la. the second one, i lost because i wasn't fierce enough! which is definitely something i could have done better. argh!!! if only i knew when to call for lets and strokes and when to just kill and not give loose shots and when to serve hard and when to do drops. argh!! the latter was really a lousy game. but i picked up something from my new friend, may b able to share with the others on how to improve our games.. :D at least i brought something home.

taking a step back, you can't help but realise how this march break seems to slip through your grip. one week may seem a pretty decent length of time to pick up loose ends and prepare for the upcoming common tests, or was it all an over-estimate? i want to believe in the latter if it helps to bring assurance that i've done my best flipping tys-es, going through well-plodded terrains of organic chemistry, theory of income or current of electricity, asking questions and getting answers for them. but reality tears all these illusions apart -- i've done none of these, not even anywhere close. it's not purely because of other activities, but rather my priorities. i don't know how many others are going through this emotional roller-coaster as i am -- knowing what we ought to do, yet not setting our hearts towards the final goal. it's not purely academic, my goal, but rather this is a benchmark towards my goal. yet i've done nothing to move along.

we're moving to a brand new day soon. it's going to be a wednesday. robs is off to indonesia for missions, do keep her in prayer. i'm sure that's something much more meaningful than what i've been doing the past few days, if we've the heart for it. hopefully one day, i'll take the step of faith and be out in the missions field. i hope everyone's doing fine, especially smo!! we all haven't heard from you for ages, really will like to hear from you soon. miss you lots!

posted by ::wt:: @ 11:12 PM